how about orange?

I think the theme of today was coming to terms with the idea that I need other people to help me. I may not like it. It may not be comfortable. I may not find it very easy. I still need to let other people help me if I hope to move through the coming weeks and months in a healthy way. And maybe that involves more overt coordination than I think is appropriate or maybe that means being ok with the fact that some people are going to let me sit and talk with them more now because they understand I need it more now than before. Humility. Perhaps I need to be ok with being a 'project' for some right now. Maybe that's not an innately wrong concept. I certainly identify students at times who I think I need to spend more time with or effort toward because of situations occuring in their lives. Why should I take offense to others approaching me in this same way?

Admittedly, It's very difficult for me to submit myself to other people in this way. Maybe it's pride or fear or insecurity or masculinity or something else. No matter what it is, I think I just need to come to terms with the fact that I'm hurting alot more than I understand right now, and I'm not big enough to handle it on my own. Even if I was, that whole mindset is incongruent with a Christian approach to relationships. If I can be there for someone else I can let someone else be there for me.

Thank the Lord for good, honest, considerate, genuine, patient, gentile friends.