new glove

Today may have been one of the more productive and functional days of my young life. I have no classes on tuesday and really no big due dates looming this week for me to feel like i had to do anything today. However, I woke up at 830am and worked on my senior thesis till 1145am. Wow! that was big. It was wonderful outside, again, today, so I went out and watched the baseball team win both games in a double header. Our softball team won it's second game today as well. I am the proud owner of a new softball glove (something I realized i was in desperate need of the other day when several laces in my old glove finally gave up and broke). On a down note, the cubs lost tonite, 5-4.

Tonight I was reminded that the purpose in preparing yourself for negative things to happen isn't to make them less negative. The purpose of the exercise is to give you the ability to function appropriately in the midst of such occurrences. 'The worst case scenario' is one of those things I'm always rolling around in my head and planning for, etc. When I do this enough, it's easy for me to forget that actual purpose. Sometimes it's easy to tell myself I do that in order to prevent those sorts of things from happening or to at least make those things 'not AS bad'. But, no, that would be a lie that I tell myself. The sole purpose in such mental preparation is to equip oneself to respond accordingly (ie: not get so overcome by emotion or disappointment or anger or frustration or surprise that i do or say something stupid, that I regret later). That's right, mentally preparing for the negative is an attempt at avoiding more regret than will already be present given the situational circumstance. It does not make the negative things any less negative or any less personal. I've just enabled myself to deal with it quicker, and healthier. still kinda sucks.... but Solomon tells me there is a season for everything.